Don't tell me how to believe
I know it takes a little time
And all I'm doing is trying to get by
But it's killing me just to try
Feel like I am wasting my life

And I don't wanna give up
What if I'm not strong enough
Don't wanna be what I'm not
But I'm giving all I got

Cali how was I supposed to know
If this is really it why do I feel like letting go
Cali I thought I knew I was gonna be
I was ready to show them all
Why do I feel like I'm not me
Why do I feel like I'm not me

But I knew every word
Man I had it all down
There was nothing I forgot to say
How did it all turn around
And why did nothing go my own way

Cali how was I supposed to know
If this is really it why do I feel like letting go
Cali I thought I knew I was gonna be
I was ready to show them all
Why do I feel like I'm not me
Why do I feel like I'm not me

And you were some kind of a dream
Was it all a fantasy was it really meant to be
And they all said this was the real deal
Now how am I supposed to feel

Cali how was I supposed to know
If this is really it why do I feel like letting go
Cali I thought I knew I was gonna be
I was ready to show them all
Why do I feel like I'm not me
Why do I feel like I'm not me

California