We return to beds and floors not ours

Should I've ever gone away?
(Paved-paradise)

Slowly mansions slide of those brown hills
During a weeks worth of rain
Your family hated my cyanide smell, my crooked smile
We ate silently and selfishly,
Looking for a weakness to pin on one another
We were in love and we hated each other
A punch in the face for every meal
As you watched me eat your portion,
As you watched me eat your problem
I watched you shrink towards skin and bones,
My invisible woman who touched me no more

The valley's fury
The faults are angry
The plates are empty
In the pantry darkness

Porcelain
Ivory
Fracture

The plane leaves the ramp and now I'm gone

I'd rather have ejected
Thought if I'd screamed
Hard enough
I could've split this airplane apart

Porcelain
Ivory
Fracture

Should I've ever gone away?

(You can't turn back now)

The plane leaves the ramp and now I'm gone

I should have left a letter