I know it's been a while
Since we've had a talk
Y'know, a man to man
A real heart to heart
I would call you
On the telephone
Just to say hi
If you weren't dead

But you are, so I cant, so I don't
I could say a little prayer but I wont
Just know that it's not your fault
That I ruin everything
Since you've been away
I haven't had much to say
But one thing I need to know
Are you still proud of me?

When you were alive
I could make you smile
Apple of your eye
We were two of a kind
You and I have made
All the same mistakes
You would tell me so
If you weren't dead

But you are and I'm not
I could even the score
It just takes one shot
But I wont
And when I get like that
I just think of you
Yeah, I do that a lot

So here's my little note to you
It's something I needed to do
And know that I still love
I don't know if I'll see you again

I hope I will someday
But I'll write this down in case
I just wanted you to know
That you were my everything
All my life, you were by my side
I'll do what's right and
Make sure your still proud of me