she's my only friend
and she comforts me
when i lie awake
watching the ceiling decay

she frightens
normalcy away
from me
for me
for me

she chokes me
and i cough up
everything
the shards the blood
drains away

i've atoned
for the
things i have done
the wounds
have been
washed away

i've risen above
my own usefulness
so i'll cut my legs
out from under me and lie

six dark feet
wait for me
to dream
my life
away
away