I wasn't myself, nothing felt right, aftertaste evening
You shifted your gears, feigned a quick smile, thought about leaving
I've been here before, thought to myself, feeling reclusive
I buy and sell lies, pay with my bones, call me abusive

And I'm selfish, I know
Learned my lessons, you hoped
And I'm selfish

I wasted the night, wasting away, waiting for morning
Hoods under my eyes, candles are lit, time slowly burning
No, never before, never again, will I greet the sunrise
With hate in my heart, fear in my bones, tears in both my eyes

And I'm selfish, I know
Learned my lessons, you hoped
And I'm selfish

I'm talking to God, like he's the man, behind the curtain
Now speaking the deeds, that I regret, tongue feels uncertain
I've been here before, down on my knees, and this time I heard her
Voice, warmer than love, harder than truth, nothing to hide in

And I'm selfish, I know
Learned my lessons, you hoped
And I'm selfish

I've been here before, steeped in regret, shaped by the fire
Love, people don't change, people don't change
I'm such a liar