Dimmed down bed room lights
better stay quiet, everyone's tired
my minds forgetting mother's advice
to never play with knives
and alcohol
it's sad I'm everything to her
but too me I'm nothing at all

swallow it, take it down, drown out this town
and the sound of nothing
that seems so loud to ears waiting
ready to hear a new sound
and eyes that are blinded to all outside lights

maybe i'm forgetting to tell myself that these nightmares can come real
maybe it's nothing
maybe I forget to tell myself that
if dreams come true then nightmares can too
and this monster that eats at my brain and my heart and arms called growing up

swallow it take it down drown out this town
and the sound of nothing
that seems so loud to ears waiting
ready to hear a new sound
and eyes that are blinded to all outside lights

this state is a hand me down sweater sown in shit
that I've grown out of and don't want to deal with
but I don't think there's an escape
every city is the same city with a different name
but I would never kill myself

because even now heaven so closely resembles hell
through just another window
in a house on the side of
a street that leads to nothing
only circles around it's self I wait so
impatiently for change to save me from
this grave I dig myself every night

take my mind away and say that 'everything will be ok'
give it back to me, everything will never be the same
self destruct
everything will never 'be ok