(for Fred and Emil Banzhaf)
and it's true he was so young
but you are here
and that moment clouds your brain
you could've even saved him
that means nothing
you could've even been there
that's a lie
how can you blame him for your life
it's a mental suicide
and it carries you away
dissolve your fear in one (dissolve will find a way)
then it's true we aren't immune
but there's a way
and denial clouds your brain
to try and understand him that means nothing
to try and find the meaning it's a lie
to right a wrong to understand to
figure out it's in his plans
to leave alone to find a way to
figure out it's not your fault
and it's the both of you he's ruined
he's torn away all the desire born inside
you could've even saved him that means nothing
you could've even been there it's a lie
to leave alone to find a way
to figure out it's not your fault
to see yourself your brother wouldn't be proud of you