It's been awhile
Since I could
Hold my head up high

And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you

And it's been awhile
Since I could stand
On my own two feet again

And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that are rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I could say
That I wasn't addicted and

It's been awhile
Since I could say
I loved myself as well and

It's been awhile
Since I've gone
And fucked things up
Just like I always do

And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to
Disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Again

Why must I feel this way?

Just make this go away

Just one more peaceful day

And it's been awhile
Since I could
Look at myself straight

And it's been a while
Since I said I'm sorry

And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way
The candles light your face

And it's been awhile
But I can still remember
Just the way you taste

And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
To be
I know it's me

I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile
Since I could
Hold my head up high

And it's been a while
Since I said I'm sorry