Lost Myself In Search of You
written and performed by Matt Nathanson
from the album "Please"
I was holding you so tight and you were holding me
So wrapped up in the moment I was feeling such security
and the first few weeks were just like heaven
but I never really seemed to get that high
so now I just sit here laughing at the time that passed me by
It's times like these when I feel I'm on my knees beggin
Please don't go!
And as you slipped away
I couldn't admit that we were through
and as you slipped away
I found I lost myself in search of you
I was holding you so tight and you were holding him
but you left the door so wide open that I was sure you'd come back in
And now the only time I can hold you is in my mind
but that doesn't seem to fill me up inside
So yes I felt lonely and yes I felt a need
and you seemed to feel it necessary to make me see
that I was wrong and you were right and that all my attempts
were in vain but I was pretty sure you'd turn around and want me back again
And as you slipped away
I couldn't admit that we were through
And as you slipped away
I found I lost myself in search of you
I was holding you so tight when you needed help
I guess insecurities catch up to you when your lying to yourself
But I wasn't lying when I told you all that you could be
but it was no use
You never really listened to me
I was holding you so tight but now I've let you go
(note: these lyrics were taken from the album sleeve but they tend to stay pret
ty accurate in Nathanson's case)
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