I'm trying too hard to forget to just be me
Forgetting to forget the imagined audience
Who i wish would understand me,
Yet never know me
Because i can't bear to show what i don't know
This is why i discuss trivialities
This is why i seem so strong
Because my shell won't be cracked if i make sure you never find out how to
Yet i want to open up
I want to see who i am
I want to see
But it terrifies me to think that maybe you love me for what i say and not who i am
My politics just aren't me;
Just another wall between you and i

The select few who've seen through the facade,
I pushed away in horror
Afraid of what they knew
I withheld so much about myself to keep a fucked-up advantage
And now i see i never had anything to gain
So now there's no more trying to "Just be me"
No more hiding behind a language just expose myself for what i've been;
A fraud,
Cashing in on rhetoric
That i learned to abuse,
What i used to push you away
That i used to win even though every single time i lost
Every single time