Sitting in, once again
We speak of who I wish I am
You speak of what a waste you are
Your heartbeat an infinite art
We pause
You start tearing at my head
While I'm defeated in my bed
I whisper of the mess I am
And all the lies you spread

Well maybe I don't understand
The pain caused by my hand
But before there's reason in your words
I'll just let things get worse
Worse than I can handle
Worse than I can be
I'm blinded by these things
That I could never see

I called you
I asked you to stay
Things could never go that way
I asked you
I begged for help
My ways you could never tell
Tell how and why you left me here
Without a clue and lost in fear
Heaven is the only thing
That's keeping you from me
I could never bear to loose you
I can never speak your name
Without shedding another tear
Without dreading every day

Well maybe I don't understand
The pain caused by my hand
But before there's reason in your words
I'll just let things get worse
Worse than I can handle
Worse than I can be
I'm blinded by these things
That I could never see

I yell it from above you now
I scream it from the clouds
This is beyond your control
In heaven I'm finally whole

Well maybe I don't understand
The pain caused by my hand
But before there's reason in your words
I'll just let things get worse
Worse than I can handle
Worse than I can be
I'm blinded by these things
That I could never see