You know I want to be
the way you want me to
big hearted and tall enough to cover you

I would break in half
if you said it loud splinter out of myself
just like mercury

I think it's better now,
than how it used to be
you were lying in bed and I would levitate

I think it's better here,
than where we used to be
I wish I could go out into the Oregon sun
to be alive in the day
I would smile at everyone

I remember you
back in '83
you were dressing insane
you were my everything

you were so different
from all those other girls
a blind electra in drag
so cool and casually lame

I think I'm better now
than how I used to be
always nervous and weird
scared most of the time

I think it's better now
than how it used to be
always up in the night
afraid to live in the day
afraid of being afraid

afraid to live in the day
afraid of being afraid

I sit alone
when your not around
I read aloud just to hear a friendly noise

I see your scary dolls
they always look at me
from the corner of my eyes
I see them shake their heads

you know I want to be
the way you want me to
big hearted and tall enough to cover you

I want to be
the way you want me to
I wish I could go out just to be alive in the day

to be alive in the day
to be alive in the day
to be alive in the day