I'm black on blacker velvet,
Milk skin and veins,
Like some El Greco painting,
So full of pain
So full of longing for light of day
I thought I knew who I was in the world
But here I am twice blind at being born,
Crawling to my buried voice, within
And I've forgotten who I used to be
And I've forgotten the woman in red,
Living her dream
And I've forgotten the courage I used to be
Happiness is overrated,
It never lasts
Skating the surface of oceanic depths
Oh may the fruit of my life be meaning
So please forgive me all my seriousness,
My so-called spirituality,
I'm just a mess
I'm tears and anxiety,
But I'm unafraid to See
And I've forgotten who I used to be,
The leader in her glory shining, divining
And I've forgotten, the courage I used to be,
The middle passage is so damned humbling, persona crumbling,
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try, and I try
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know,
And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try, and I try
Like some El Greco painting,
No sun or sky
No lantern, no candle needed to light,
The holy radiance behind the eyes
And I've forgotten who I used to be
And I've forgotten the woman in red, living her dream
And I've forgotten the courage I used to be
I don't know