Praying for myself
These thoughts I try to hide
I have faith in me and hope this will survive
But it's tearing me apart
I can't hear the words by which I guide
So I must ask again who will carry me

I will not deny that nothing can defend
from the helplesness that's cutting deep inside,and I cannot prevent the thought that nothing's real
Seems I've waited years for this day to end

The strength I need to feel, the pride inside of me,
Are not there behind the face staring back at me
The anger and the pain of knowing where I am
I have come so far and I cannot return

Nothing I can do that I have not done
No words I can say No truth left that I can seeSo must I let this end so everything falls apart
Before I live the life as I have always done

Tell me what to do so I do nothing wrong
Something I can hope for Something real that I can see
So nothing falls apart So that it does not end
I cannot return I can't start again