[Ozzy]
I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes
[Eminem]
Lately I really, feel like I'm rolling for delf like Philly,
I feel like I'm losing control of myself, I sincerely,
I apologize if all that I sound like is I'm complaining,
But life keeps on complicating, and I'm debating,
On leaving this world, this evening, even my girls,
Can see I'm grievin', I try and hide it,
But I can't, why do I act like I'm all high and mighty,
When inside, I'm dying, I am finally realizing I need help
Can't do it by myself, too weak, 2 weeks I've been having ups and downs,
Going through peaks and valleys, dilly dallying,
'Round with the idea, of ending the shit right here
I'm hatin' my reflection, I walk around the house tryin' to fight mirrors,
I can't stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?
I give a fuck, only thing I fear's Hailie,
I'm afraid if I close my eyes that I might see her,
Shit
[Chorus]
[Eminem]
I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon,
Yeah dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you
Marshall what happened that you, can't stop with these pills,
And you've fallen off with your skills, and your own fans are laughin' at you
It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle, get up,
Be a man, stand, a real man would have had this shit handled
Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed,
They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust,
Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that,
He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at, nobody, he'd fight first,
But dwellin' on it only makes the night worse,
Now I'm poppin Vic's, Perc's, and Methadone pills
"Yeah Em, tight verse, you killed it,"
Fuckin' drug dealers hang around me like yes men,
And they gon' do whatever I says when, I says it,
It's in their best interest to protect their investment
And I just lost my fuckin' best friend, so fuck it, I guess then
[Chorus]
Don't know what I'm gonna do but I just keep on going through changes
My friends can't understand this new me,
That's understandable man, but just think how bananas you'd be,
You'd be an animal too, if you were trapped in this fame
And caged in it like a zoo
And everybody's lookin' at you, what you want me to do,
I'm startin' to live like a recluse and the truth is,
Fame's startin' to give me an excuse, to be at a all time low
I sit alone in my home theater, watchin' the same damn DVD,
Of the first tour, the last tour he was still alive
And it hurt so I, fast forward, sleepin' pills will make me feel alright
And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night,
I just take a couple more, yeah you're motherfuckin' right,
I ain't slowin' down for no one, I am almost homeward bound
Almost in a coma, yeah homie come on, dole 'em out,
Daddy, don't you die on me, daddy, better hold your ground
Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice,
Yeah baby hold me down
[Chorus]
Don't know what I'm gonna do but I just keep on going through changes
Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes, but somehow I'm pullin' through
Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof
I'ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few,
Facts, cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
Shit it just hit me that what if I would not have made it through?
I think about the things I would have never got to say to you,
I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do
Hailie this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too,
I still love your mother, that'll never change,
Think about her every day, we just could never get it together
Hey, wish there was a better way, for me to say it,
But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on any day
There are just too many things, to explain, when it rains,
Guess it pours, yes it does, wish there wasn't any pain
But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placin' any blame,
I ain't pointin' fingers, heaven knows I've never been a saint
I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history,
And just today, I looked at your picture, almost as if to say,
"I miss you" self consciously, wish it didn't end this way
But I just had to get away, don't know why,
I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm
[Chorus]
Don't know what I'm gonna do but I just keep on going through changes