Before I looked to you as something I adored
An inch out of my reach beyond my form
You were an object to me, you held my gaze
The person I was once has me amazed

So in my head I whispered words, empty now
Not yours, not ever, no way, no how
I do believe yes, looking back
that you have always, always, known

Yes, I wanted of you Yes, I longed to touch you
Yes, I slept drained of you Yes, I never had you
Yes, I've grown beyond you Yes, I've gone and lived without you
Yes, I've thought about you Yes, I've learned to hate you

Now, I realize you Now, I stand above you
Now, I can despise you, and all others like you
Once, I would have loved you Done anything for you
Held, touched, cared, forever fucked you
Now the thought makes me abhor you

You've done nothing for me Tears were never shed for me
Still I know you knew it silently took more of me
You'll never touch me You'll never taste me
No matter how you want me You mean nothing to me

I see red and taste your smile, bile-like spitting choked defiled
memories now so maddening innocent, embarrassing
Now you're nothing and I know, as I look to you below,
is my laughter not enough to show you how extremely you're fucked up